Looking for Landmarks

I was told to expect a period of down time while my body and mind made the adjustment from the daily commute to keeping my own schedule. I just didn't realize how adrift I would be with most of the daily structure removed. I took a week and a half of vacation in late November, so I thought I had a head start on the relaxing bit. I was visiting my sister, and I had just wrapped up a very stressful couple of weeks at work, so I kept up a regular schedule of meals and sleeping, along with a schedule of activities. Not as jam-packed as my normal schedule, but an orderly flow nevertheless.

Now, my days are mostly free. Waking and sleeping hours are fairly arbitrary, although I do sleep at night and wake during the day. Meals tend to be a mid-morning breakfast, and mid-afternoon lunch, and a light snack at night. I have completed a couple of small items on my mammoth do-list, just to give myself a sense of accomplishment. I still have various appointments, the occasional lunch meeting. On those days, I have to be at a specific place, at a specific time. The structure doesn't seem to carry over into the rest of the week. That bothers me, a little. I have things to do, things to mull over, plans I made when I was setting this whole thing up. On the other hand, people who have been here before me say that the drifting doesn't last forever. Eventually, the days fall into a pattern and a sense of direction takes hold.

I remind myself that the major reason for being here, doing what I'm doing, is to break apart the old structures and make room for new ideas and opportunities. So for now, I will go with the flow (or lack of it).